it's still me

imagine my last entry here was on june 1...ang dali nga namn ng panahon, ang dami kong gustong ishare sa blog kong ito pero i dont know how to start my entry. bsta alam ko na mimiss ko na ang magsulat d2...na kahit simpleng pangyayari lng sa buhay ko ay sinishare ko na. but this time around since my last entry ang dami kong na learned..d ko mn na epxerience yung mga bagay na yun, it's enough for me to know na ang dami ko pa talagang kailangang gawin as an individual...mahirap i.explain but i know one of this days, maishare ko na d2...

what a bad morning

i can't seriously do my work or shall i say all of us here in the office, someone called up us here to informed us that my co-officemate (as i mentioned one of my entry here na manganganak na from time to time) has died last night, we can't help but cry....

DAVID COOK'S TIME OF MY LIFE

when i watched last nyt's grand finale of american idol i can't wait for the moment for the host to name the winner. but deep in my heart david cook is the winner. he really deserved it, i really cried when he cried esp. when he sings time of my life. waaaaaaaaaahhhhh the best ka talaga idol, sabi ko na nga ba kaw talaga mananalo, as wat i have previously posted here in my blog na para sa akin talaga he's the winner. imagine he got 12 million votes from the viewers...as in waaaaaaahhhh talaga...again DC, congrats! WAY TO GO...

so much pressured!

as in sabay.sabay yung pressured na pinag.daanan ko ngaung araw na 2... first and foremost pressured ako kasi andito yung boss ko na palagi tinatawg ang name ko kaya d n lng ako nakakafocus sa gagawin ko...second, waaaaaahhh nasira ko cguro i.pod na ibibigay ng sis ko sa bro. ko, pero la namn akong gnawa eh...i mean i'll jst added lots of songs sa ipod na yun kaso pag.open ala na d na maoopen, kung sino mn makakatulong sa kin pls. help me namn pleaseeeeeeeeee....third, isang napakalaking waaaaaaaahhhh kasi my officemate maglilabor na from time to time kaya kailangan nya endorse sa kin mga workloads nya.waaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh ano ba 2.....aja!aja! edz...

DAVID COOK: THE NEXT AMERICAN IDOL for me

This Guy is absolutely something amazing! Too Good To Be True... DC, U really had amazed me from the very first.. , there must be a real BIG plan for u. N now u'r reaching out your destiny.
i go crazy with his voice and i think he will be the next american idol...Just so you people know...David Cook has personality, style, ORIGINALITY, the looks, and TALENT!!! I love you David Cook!!!

Well Mr Cook, I'm positively sure this time you'll carry the GOLD home

wrong decisions

once in our life we made a wrong decision, wrong in the sense that after you followed a certain decision, feeling mo tama ka in the end mali pala. ang hirap magdecide lalo na't u have to sacrifice one thing or a lot as i might say just to decide one thing na alam mo na ikakabuti mo as an individual. one decision i made it wrong was last year when i have to decide a certain thing na for me na ikaliligaya ko, but i just came to realized na i wasn't that happy talaga kasi d lng pala yung bagay na yun ang magpapaligaya sa akin. but as i said to myself na kahit mali mn yung desisyon ko i know God has plans for me na mafufulfilled ko na talaga kung ano mn ang gusto ko, yet d talaga lahat gusto ko matutupad ...kaya if u made a wrong decision panindigan nyo n lng yun, wla kang ibang sisihin kundi sarili mo and all you have to do is to stand up again and moving on. there's so much in the world for you to conquer...and i too waiting for the moment of my own journey...

add spice into your life

hmp!

early in the morning, im so pissed! have you tried that when you have a great sleep so expectedly you can smile all over the world coz you are very much happy. and then when you go to the office somebody tell you something that can be irritated to hear? even though she's one of my boss but i think i have the right to say what i feel and for me im right of what i've said to her. she's asking me to change my report the same way she did her report..hello? i mean, we're different invidividuals so definitely we have different way of doing it but have the same output. i mean if i'm comfortable the way i did to my report and so be it...it's not always i have to follow her instructions coz i do have my own way of doing something that is very easy for me to do...after all i do it properly...but because i explained my sides so she said to me that it's up to me na lang daw...yan pala eh..but there's a guilt feeling inside my heart coz i know, for her as my boss i have to follow her but my officemates said that ok lng namn dw na sinabi ko yung part ko atleast medyo nawala yung guilt ko.

go, go, go

i have to finish my work or else our head gonna kick me down..hehehehe joke i mean she's here and i have to rush all my works coz time to time she'll gonna asking me all the reports she wanted. gosh! and there's one report that i miss to do. ill just keep my two fingers cross for her not to ask me this report i've missed.....so good luck na lng sa kin...

living with hope

take a look at your life. How would you describe it? Contented? Rushed? Exciting? Stressful? Moving forward? Holding back? For many of us it’s all of the above at times. There are things we dream of doing one day, there are things we wish we could forget. In the Bible, it says that Jesus came to make all things new. What would your life look like if you could start over with a clean slate?

If you are looking for peace, there is a way to balance your life. No one can be perfect, or have a perfect life. But every one of us has the opportunity to experience perfect grace through a personal relationship with God through His Son, Jesus Christ.

You can receive Christ right now by faith through prayer. Praying is simply talking to God. God knows your heart and is not so concerned with your words as He is with the attitude of your heart.

Here's a suggested prayer:

Lord Jesus, I want to know you personally. Thank you for dying on the cross for my sins. I open the door of my life to you and ask you to come in as my Savior and Lord. Take control of my life. Thank you for forgiving my sins and giving me eternal life. Make me the kind of person you want me to be.

Does this prayer express the desire of your heart? You can pray it right now, and Jesus Christ will come into your life, just as He promised.

If you invited Christ into your life, thank God often that He is in your life, that He will never leave you and that you have eternal life. As you learn more about your relationship with God, and how much He loves you, you'll experience life to the fullest.

trust and love...

last nyt me and my boyfriend discussing or shall i say debating about the difference between love and trust. He asked me that if for me daw trust and love shud go together or u can love somebody without trusting her/him. and so i directly answered that as for me i wont trust all the things u've said but because i love him, no matter wat he'd said i prefer to believe in than to think of a negative sides of it after all, he never changes the way he loves and cares for me....and then my boyfriend laughed at of what i've answered to him...he said i just made things more complicated by my answered coz in short i trust him dw coz i luv him...so therefore love and trust shud go together in different kinds of relationship, without trust dw our relationshp won't go that long...infairness he's ryt...but honestly speaking, im still confused..hehehehe or maybe im just afraid to tell him the truth that i trust him coz it's really hard to trust and trust and in the end ill be the one to suffer...

MAMA, I LOVE YOU...

even if im not yet a mother but still i can feel it that it's the difficult task to do of a woman....imagine ur bringing a child inside your womb in 9 months??huh! is it that amazing....so i guess it's my opportunity to thank my mother in everything she does, in behalf of my sisters and brothers we owe you a lot.............

and even if, me and my other sister, not with you personally but we make it a point that we can give something for you in return not that big thing but atleast in way u can feel how special you are to us as our mother.

Yesterday, me and sister called up my brother in Cebu to buy something for my mother. We send some money to buy a cake and an ice cream. And then after my brother went home he called us that he was just arrived bringing the cake and ice.cream. So my mom got really surprised yesterday and thank us. And we heard lots of people in our house spending mother's day with my mother.

WE LOVE YOU MAMA........................

advice from a friend...

got this from bianca gonzalez's blog and i repost it to my blog coz i know lot of people can relate to this:

this post is dedicated to all those going through difficult matters of the heart!

”diary of a broken heart”, this was my planned title for a diary-of-sorts that i wanted to write when i was brokenhearted once. i thought to myself, what if isulat ko lahat ng nararamdaman ko araw araw sa loob ng isang buong taon, then i’d be able to read it when i am healed, and see my journey from a new point of view, from denial to anger to bitterness to hope to healing (or whatever jumbled order you’ve experienced in your own love life) and maybe, it might be able to help future broken hearts out there.

but, i never got to writing it.

siguro dahil sa sobrang sakit, kapag naiisip kong magsulat, nananalo na lang yung kagustuhan kong magmukmok sa isang tabi. imbis na mag-effort pa ako na mag-isip at magpagod, ginusto ko na lang na wala na lang akong intindihin. hanggang sa lumipas ang mga linggo, mga buwan, i went through all kinds of emotions (na slightly nakakabaliw talaga yung iba ha!), until one day, i was okay.

having said all that, and having heard some of the most saddening break-up stories the past weeks, allow me to try to reconstruct a few of the things i’ve learned in life, and love, that might help that broken heart of yours or of someone you know.

1. on advice.

kapag brokenhearted ka.. no advice said to you will make you feel better. none. as in. wala. kahit ano, walang effect. kapag brokenhearted ka, the only thing that you think will make you feel better is if the one you love will say they love you too. but they won’t. (in some cases, they won’t ever, but in some, they won’t just for this point in time.) hugs will comfort you, concerned texts will make you smile, but no amount of advice will make you feel better.. unless! unless you decide to let it make you feel better. don’t be pressured though to follow everyone’s advice. kanya-kanya lang yan. of the one hundred cliché lines thrown at you at an attempt to make you feel better, most will not make you feel better (in fact, some will make you feel worse), but there will be a few major lines (not necessarily given by those closest to you, mind you) that will speak to you and touch your heart and soothe your soul. those pieces of advice, you hold on to.

2. on prayer.

a broken heart will wake up some days so unbelievably hopeless and wanting to just stay in bed all day. some will even go all out in saying they want to die (but of course you don’t really want to die, right?) a broken heart will wake up some days feeling somewhat rested and peaceful, but with a slight fear that they might encounter something that day that will bring back all the pain. whatever mood the broken heart wakes up in, one thing remains. it’s a broken heart. and this may sound cheesy or false to some, but there is only one thing that can heal all things broken. our LoRd and personal savior, JeSus ChRisT. when your heart is peaceful, give thanks. when your heart is troubled, still give thanks and ask for deliverance. when your heart is shattered into a million pieces, still give thanks, and ask that you may learn whatever life lesson it is that He wants you to learn. in both high and low, give thanks, because it is one of the surest things in life that GoD only works for the good of those who love Him.

3. on moving on.

don’t be pressured! for some it takes weeks. for some, months. for some, years! of course no one likes the pain that a broken heart brings. (its pain like no other! araaay talaga grabe!) but, you have to go through it. there is no short cut, there is no other way. go through it. go and let it out. cry before you sleep, cry when you wake up, cry in the bathroom, cry to your friends. lock yourself in the room, stay in bed all day, don’t talk to anyone for hours, make senti all you want. do it all. don’t let anybody stop you. (but don’t let it get in the way of school or work or the things you have to do either! okay? okay.) feel all those yucky, disgusting, heart-shattering feelings, curl it all up into this unbelievably sad ball, and one day, when you are ready, throw it out the window. it will happen for you. i know you feel it won’t, that the day you will be okay will never come, but it will. have faith, it will.

let me stop at this third point and end by saying that i’ve felt all those feelings of hopelessness and worthlessness that you might be feeling right now. and, honestly, so have thousands, and millions of other people around you. it sucks. it really does. but hey. nobody said that it would be easy, but nobody said that you have to do it alone.

all this i share with pure sincerity from the bottom of my happy heart, to your soon-to-be happy heart! :)

TRIBUTE TO MY FRIENDS

i admit, before i was a happy-go-lucky gurl...with all the stuffs i had before it's nothing without my beloved friends...true friends are the people who brighten my smile everytime i'm with them, laugh with them, drink some beers, liqours with them, dance with them, and even cry with them...while i write this sentiments of mine, i cried, for the reason i'm not with them anymore, but as we promise we'll gonna see each other again...and that's a promise...i had so much fun with you guys and miss all the stuffs...Im so thankful to all of u guys... "the only thing on this earth that will never dies is a memory and in our friendship we have made so many..."

an-an - my guidance..d best sister

jean ver - my everything...

prince edward (a.k.a. Egat) - when im with u, my world seems so right, thank you

jennifer - my ateh, my soulmate...gets???

rocky - coz u love my ateh jhen so much..luv din kita..hehehe

rose - we still stick together teh, noone or nothing can separate us ...

gera - pinakabut.an ug mahubog na..heheh hop u can find the ryt guy na..kinahanglan ipa.ila.ila na nimo naku, den ul say "ds is it"

kristine (kits) - super to the highest level ang ka energetic...

nina - kmusta?hehehe la namn ko kabw wer naka run...

gera and jean - thanks for the moment...

raray - a loyal friend...a true friend...a thoughtful friend...

jofel - cool buddy...ull always be my "part"...

tawi - funny yet very supportive and cooperative...

wowot - so sweeettt

oni - kalug!..hahaha ang bunso

lyle - be good..i miss u..

oloy and margie - u rock guys!

raymund - be good 2...:)

andie- murag bisan naa pa ko dha cebu la namn ko kita nimo..hehee

ethel - my hiskul friend who taught me the wildest things on earth..hahaha bsta ato ra na

happy or sad

naranasan nyo na ba na kung minsan masaya ka pero d mo alam kung bakit ka masaya, or malungkot ka same na di mo alam kung bakit?.....kahapon kasi feeling ko malungkot ako kaya tinanong ko yung sister ko kung minsan ganun ba cya na nalulungkot pero d alam kung ano ang reason behind it...sabi nya ganun din dw cya...cguro lng dw na bobored lng ako at parang sa kay dami ng iniisip it turns to sadness...ganun ba yun????ngayon naman, super masaya ako na walang dahilan din...ano ba 2 so weird yet na fifeel ko....

laugh trip 2!

super natuwa ako sa vid na 2..HAHAHAHAHA

PRISON BREAK FANS, PREPARE TO SERIOUSLY LOSE YOUR HEADS :)

BEST NEWS ALL DAY...YES, SARAH WAYNE CALLIES (a.k.a DR. Sarah Tancredi) is returning to the show as a regular for season four! Whoo-hoo!

READ THIS:

Prison Break Stunner: Sarah Wayne Callies Returns!

Sarah Wayne Callies — whose rather ugly contract dispute with producers led to her apparent decapitation last October — is returning next season. Full-time. As Dr. Sara Tancredi. Head and all. Seriously.How? Why? When? WTF?! All legitimate questions. Good thing I just hung up with Mr. Answer Man (aka executive producer Matt Olmstead).So... I take it that wasn't Sara's head in that box....

Matt Olmstead: Yeah, that wasn't.But initially it was supposed to be her head.

What changed?

Olmstead: What changed was.... once we realized that the emotional hook of Season 3 was going to be the death of Sara, when we didn't get the actress to do it, as soon as we wrote it and shot it, we realized that there was actually a way she could still be alive. Lincoln glanced at the head in the box for a split second. That could've been anyone. He wasn't about to pull it up from the hair and inspect it closely. And then we were fairly careful thereafter of references we made to that and who took credit for it and what was seen or heard, and we left it fairly [vague]. But initially when we realized that we never actually saw the character get killed, we just had that knowledge in our back pocket and moved forward with the narrative as we intended. Which was: she's out of the picture, Michael's [feeling guilty] and Lincoln is freaking out because if they did that to her, they could do that to his son. It really gave us a real push for the season.

Don't you think that was a little unfair to the audience — particularly fans of Dr. Sara — to jerk them around like this? They had every reason to believe she was dead.

Olmstead: I don't think it was unfair, because it gave us some real juice storytelling-wise — it put teeth in the antagonists. Obviously they were now capable of killing somebody. It also gave us a couple of episodes where Lincoln withheld the information from Michael, and that gave us conflict with the brothers. But also, what were we really going to do? Were we going to see Sarah Wayne Callies tied to a chair for 13 episodes? And then if she broke free, what is she really doing? It was almost a disservice to that character to keep her around last season. Certainly, we could have put her on a cruise ship and she's off sailing away. But we felt that if we're going to lose that character, why not get the most drama out of it? We didn't look at it in terms of [us] trying to tell the audience to go, you know, do something to themselves.

What role did the fan response to Dr. Sara's death play in her return?

Olmstead: It factored in. It was kind of a confluence of events. We saw on the message boards that a lot of fans were wondering if she really was dead. And then that led to conversations of, "Well, what if she isn't?" But then we put that on the back burner and moved forward with what we had to do, because it wasn't anything that could be dealt with right then. And then when we came back after the strike and we realized that we were not going to finish Season 3... we creatively decided to blow it all out, jump forward in the timeline and get a fresh start. And so, when we pitched that, a lot of those elements remained, but we were still looking for that emotional core for Michael. We were kind of exactly where we were in the beginning of Season 3, which led to her demise, quote unquote. So we went back and revisited [the idea of bringing her back to life]. And once we started talking about it, it was mentioned again that fans are still wondering about her. And when people who are fans of the show — and of Sarah — are asking, "Is she really dead?", what they're saying, essentially, is, "I hope she's not dead." And then it became a kind of groundswell.

But then you have to get the actress to agree to return, which I assume was no easy task given the bad blood that seemed to exist last season.

Olmstead: There wasn't bad blood on our side. It was a business decision. I understood where she was coming from in that she was given a provisional assurance that she was going to be a part of Season 3, but we had to revisit Season 3 a couple of times in the pitch stage in order to get it picked up. Fox was still looking for that emotional hook. Once we came up with the idea of her character going away, that gave us what we needed to push things over the edge. And although we were comfortable with it, she wasn't. I also understand on a personal level how it factored in. She was pregnant at the time and looking forward to giving birth, and this wasn't something she was interested in doing.

What changed for her that she's willing to come back now?

Olmstead: She and I spoke a couple of days ago at length about what we have come up with creatively for her character.... We're jumping ahead a little bit in the timeline. There's a little bit of a mystery period for all of these characters in terms of how they got where they are and what happened to them. And we have some interesting things for her, and she responded to them creatively. We won't just be picking up where we left off with her character. And she won't be a damsel in distress waiting for her hero to return. There are some complicating factors involved with her character and things that she's looking forward to. So we spoke about it, she thought about it, and we made a deal.

No hard feelings, then? Everyone's moving on?

Olmstead: Moving on. She's a very smart lady, and we're all adults here. It was never personal. It was a business and creative decision, and we're absolutely moving on.Can you say how she'll be reintroduced next season?Olmstead: It's going to be about figuring out what happened to her during that mystery period [between the end of Season 3 and the start of Season 4], and how she and Michael deal with it.

How much time will have lapsed?

Olmstead: About a month. Enough to jump past expected events that we left hanging at the end of Season 3, answering those things, but also moving forward

.And Sarah is onboard for the entire season?

Olmstead: Yes.

OK, there you have it. Thoughts on this mind-blowing turn of events? Yay? Nay? Jump the Sharkay? Sound off below!

BE THANKFUL TO GOD FOR EVERYTHING...

Yes, we can be thankful that we have a good job, that our family is healthy, that we have enough money. We can be thankful for almost anything but God needs to be the object of our gratitude. God has enabled us to work, to have a job, to make money. He is the source of everything we have.

In Matthew 6:25-34 God tells us that we are more important than the birds and the flowers, and He provides for them. He also tells us not to worry. Instead we need to be thankful for how He has provided for us by seeking Him and He will take care of us.

holy week vacation

thursday morning, preparing for our clothes, food etc. to bring on a vacation in the province of laguna, then at 10am na talaga kami umalis, from manila to laguna...pagdating namin dun kumain ng kunti sa bahay sa auntie ng ka officemate ko, tapos ayun punta kami sa batis ng makiling, ng super ang daming private pool dun naturally came from hot spring....as in nakakarelax talaga, as in nag.eenjoy kami dun, nagkantahan, inuman, chikahan...hanggang magdamag...

then friday morning we went to church para magdasal at magpsalamat sa Diyos sa lahat2x, tapos nag pipicturan sa mga tanawin dun sa calamba laguna

until we reached Dr. jose Rizal's house.............hanggang kami ay napuyat..hehehe ok lang enjoy at sulit namn bakasyun namin....

i miss my friends

just a short story:

dba im from cebu but currently working here in manila, but before i accepted my job here i had thought for so many things, isa na diyan was ma mimiss ko talaga mga friends ko sa cebu. Sila talaga yung kaibigan na d ka talaga iiwan sa anumang laban....lahat cguro na aspeto ng buhay ko ay kasali mga kaibigan ko, isa sila sa mga inspirasyun ko kung bakit narating ko kung anuman meron ako ngayon....i really miss their company, the inuman, rampahan, night swimming na kahit wlang okasyun, at higit sa lahat bonding lng sa bahay ng isa kong kaibigan, wlang uuwi pag di namin naririnig ang tilaok ng manok, hahahaha sobrang na miss ko talaga nun...it's just that everyone of us has to move on!!!!

AT LONG LAST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

after 48 years, finally i've decided to make my own blog..hahah. you would think for a reason what made me decide to create my own blog... Thanks to Rose Owens who forced me to do so..hehehe. Rose Owens is one of my closest friends here on earth (no choice)hahahaha. She's now in New York, with her boring days she got to create her blog and now she's telling me to create one. But kidding aside, i do love to have my own blog...and i hope this wouldn't be my first and last post hehehe(kinda lazy).....